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Have you ever gotten the sinking feeling that a friend has been saying awful things behind your back? I’ve had that unsettling feeling in the pit of my stomach for a while.
I know you’re probably thinking, This friend is so not your friend, Girl. Get over her and move on. I know that’s good advice, but I just can't shake the feeling that we’re supposed to be friends.
Every time I know what she's saying about me, I know I should dump her like last week’s spaghetti, but I know what it feels like and how much it hurts. I know that in the long run not an inch of what’s happening will really matter, but it still bothers me.
I pray right now for all of my Sisses that you won’t have to feel the pain of a situation like mine. I hate it that I don’t have a backbone, but what I hate more is that every little thing I hear matters. Whether it’s the smallest piece of gossip or a back-stabbing friend, everything matters.
That was my way to depict how I feel about my emotions. I know what hurts most about the entire situation is that my friend would ever try to stab me in the backbone. This is where one of my favorite quotes comes into play.
"Pain is God's megaphone to awaken a starving and sleeping world."
This quote describes exactly how I feel right now. I know, however, no matter what, that God is with me. He’s there through everything. Psalms 23 remind me: “He makes me lie down in green pastures. Even as I walk through the valley, of the shadow, of Death, I shall fear no evil.”
I can’t say that I’ve been incredibly strong through this experience, but I can say this: I'm not dead. I have life, and my life will be lived to the fullest. I’ll learn to live with God and without evil. I’ll learn to show people what I believe.
I hope I’ll be alive when my Lord, comes again. Though that may not happen, I still know one thing: He loves me no matter what. He’s the Savior of my soul. And I know I’m saved. That’s something no one, not even the ruler of the shadow of death, can take away from me.
by Erin
British Columbia, Canada